Love SS501.DBSK.SUPER JUNIOR.F4.MANY MORE.
Monday, November 8, 2010Y
Few things to be happy about.
1)Family is watching You're Beautiful! I have a weird feeling when you mention A.N Jell.My stomach would hurt.Maybe cause' I love them! 2)Exam's over! 3)School's ending in a week's time 4)Scored well for math and science!
ok,a orange seed is in my mouth,and i swallowed it.
I love this feeling of freedom although it is something temporary. guess what was the first thing dad said on the phone when he phoned me. not ike "读书辛苦吗”或“开心吗” 而是“考试好吗” WHat is the point of me living. They will only know how to say"just try your best and work hard" But when i get low for example comprehension open ended in Chinese,Mum would say:Look lar!Always go through testpaper you just keep nodding your head!" YOU WAS THE ONE THAT TOLD ME TO JUST TRY MY BEST! How can i possibly not try my best in my examinations and just bad results?When i get bad results,i feel guilty and i hate myself! WHY CAN'T I DO AS GOOD AS HOW OTHERS DOES? WHY AM I SO DUMB? I AM SCARED. I FEEL LIKE I AM USELESS AND WORTHLESS TO STAY IN THIS EARTH! PERHARPS I SHOULD JUST LEAVE. I TRIED MY BEST! At least i scored well for Math and Science,Or else i would just die and forget everything! I am freaky,i know. You may feel freaked out now,if you are,then leave. Those that chose to stay,prepare for next year,when i will be having my PSLE...Fine don't remind me about it.
Even if I do well in most of the things I do, I tend to focus in on the few areas where I didn't excel. I only seem to notice the sad or negative headlines even when there are good things going on in the world. People are so mean sometimes, it's like they take pleasure in others' misfortune. When something goes wrong in my life, the worst thing about it is facing the judgment of others. To me, doing my best isn't good enough unless I am actually successful. I am more likely to blame my failures on lack of intelligence or ability than on a simple lack of effort. When I make a mistake or do something foolish, I get embarrassed, thinking about what others must be thinking. I keep failures and disappointments to myself to avoid being judged by others. I take every small issue with friends or loved ones to mean that they no longer want to be around me cause i really want to feel loved.
Saturday, September 25, 2010Y
i am _____
I am ______. I am not sure how i am feeling now. Happy? Sad? Lonely? Crazy? I have no idea...perharps someone should tell me, my feelings i miss my day when i saw CN Blue That should make me happy I think people always thinks that i am free. but. i am . not. No one knows, perharp. or perharps, they will know one day, who knows? i am worried, worried for everything... but again no one knows. only me? i am the only me feeling this? why? tell me why! it is coming. my exams. are coming... and me? i am not. not.ready for it. i have no idea. why am i in this state. tell me.again.
Saturday, August 21, 2010Y
Yo!I am happy!
I am so so so so so so happy! The day before yesterday,like i told you,CN Blue came. and mum actually allowed me and my sister to go! We went there like half an hour earlier and they reached there punctually-8pm. And i saw them especially close when we met my sis friend and they lend us their seats and when there are leaving.Jung Yong Hwa was damn cute.Everyone was like touching him crazily and he was quite shocked,indeed. Oh yeah,JongHyun was also very cute.He kept on waving! A lot of fans was like "Min Hyuk!Look Up!"Will they understand? I will post some of the nicest pictures to share with you soon cause PP2 is coming and mum does not seem too happy doing this. My favourite bands NOW! 1)SHINee 2)CN Blue 3)SS501 [Focus]Kwang Jin and Jong Hyun
Yesterday was my piano grade 5 practical exam.and the person was very scary.if you play something wrongly,he would like stare at you for very long THROUGH the piano....Scary,right? And PP2 is on the way.I took the Higher Chinese and Science one already and it was very diffiicult. Anyways,CN Blue is in Singapore now!They are going City Square Mall.I think i maybe going leh.SO HAPPY!JUNG YONG HWA!