I love this feeling of freedom
although it is something temporary.
guess what was the first thing dad said on the phone when he phoned me.
not ike "读书辛苦吗”或“开心吗”
而是“考试好吗”
WHat is the point of me living.
They will only know how to say"just try your best and work hard"
But when i get low for example comprehension open ended in Chinese,Mum would say:Look lar!Always go through testpaper you just keep nodding your head!"
YOU WAS THE ONE THAT TOLD ME TO JUST TRY MY BEST!
How can i possibly not try my best in my examinations and just bad results?When i get bad results,i feel guilty and i hate myself!
WHY CAN'T I DO AS GOOD AS HOW OTHERS DOES?
WHY AM I SO DUMB?
I AM SCARED.
I FEEL LIKE I AM USELESS AND WORTHLESS TO STAY IN THIS EARTH!
PERHARPS I SHOULD JUST LEAVE.
I TRIED MY BEST!
At least i scored well for Math and Science,Or else i would just die and forget everything!
I am freaky,i know.
You may feel freaked out now,if you are,then leave.
Those that chose to stay,prepare for next year,when i will be having my PSLE...Fine don't remind me about it.

Labels: Freaky Me